Yeah, I can imagine. My suicidal urges have come and gone. Between mid-April and late-May 2001. I hear voices, I've got tremors, I've been clinically depressed, I don't remember many of the things that I've done (because I really WASN'T myself at the time...). I'm a genuine crazy. SO, if ever I don't seem like myself when I post it's most likely because I am not/wasn't at the time I posted.