I like to think of him as... diffident. When i was a Christian i had all sorts of explanations that rationalised the existence of evil and an all-powerful god. Now i just don't care. I just meander through like, doing my best to be a decent individual, and persuade others to hold a similar viewpoint (without going to war over it) and trust that if he does exist, and holds the views that i was taught he did about getting into heaven, then he'll know what it is i've tried to do, and understand.